I want the world to smile...weird i know. I sound like Dr.MLK or Maya Angelou. I did some riding the other day and took a good look at the people around me. Dialysis patients and they reminded me of what my father went through. Its amazing how something so helpful can be so painful and harmful to a person. I watched these ppl go in this Davita building so bright and come out six hours later so dark. Then I thought about those six hrs they spend on a machine and how they sit there with tubes in their veins running their blood inside and out...inside and out for hrs while im, sleeping. shopping, on my mac, watchin cable, laughin with my friends, texting my friends, eating home cooked meals, etc then I thought about what they may go home to...when my aunt drops them off I NEVER know whats behind that door bell I just rang for them to come out...then my father crosses my mind... at 4:35 AM when Im up with her driving the silent streets of westland. I wonder why he had to endure something so meaningless yet so meaningful. And it comes to me...for #LIFE, which is something WE as ppl take so much for granted, I often go to sleep with out saying my prayers and some pray to the Lord that their love one makes it to see another day. I complain alot due to being so tired with my situations and never think twice to pray for the person whos in the same pot as me or maybe even worse off... I say all this to say, even though I go through what I go through I just wanna see smiles on ppls faces even if I cant put one on myself due to lounging in my own problems...
I talked to my bestfriend today and she called crying about some unneeded BS...I wont get into details b/c shes a person who likes her problems to be btwn her the man above and the person she shared em with...she was hysterical about some bullshit that didnt even have to happen..Shes sucha sweet person with a beautiful spirit and it hurts me to see ppl like that deal with dumb ass ppl who dont deserve them or use them....shes so hurt and I feel so bad for her. We are like glue so it feels weird that Im able to sit here and blog about her problems b/c a phone call is not good enough to calm her....I just wanna see her smile.
I thank the few I have who have tried their hardest to make sure my dimples continue to show, my smile has been somewhat bright since I changed the company I keep...I thank you...
welp until next time....im outtie...but I may give ya two blogs tonite...im just in that kinda mood.
QUOTE OF THE DAY: you gossip about me b/c im different & i laugh @ Y0U b/c u all are the same... (frm urs truly) xoxox
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