All i want for christmas is.....

I hope these things are under my tree come December 25th,2008

1. Tickle me Elmo 0R Elmo live.
2. Fuzzy socks [any color]
3. Starbucks gift card
4. John & Kate Plus 8 DVD [any season]
5. House DVD [any season
6. Law & Order SVU [any season]
7. Grey's Anatomy [any season]
8. Money
9. Gift card to ANY clothing store
10. Gift card to Foot locker or Champs
11. Bath & Body works gift card.
12. Socks & Beaters or baby tee's.
13. Pajamas
14. The Dark Knight DVD
15. Jewelery [necklace,rings or earrings]

"WELL..WELL..WELL"

I still remember stories 4rm the family telling me how when I was a baby you would come into a room & I would instantly stop crying, all b/c you would say those 3 words "WELL,WELL,WELL!". I love you granddad and I'm praying that you get well soon. You have done so much in my life, from giving me my middle name to helping my mother take care of me. I know I didn't spend too much time with you when I got older,and you started to get sick. I'm sorry for not calling like I could have,I'm sorry for not hugging you for no reason @ all and not randomly visiting like I could have after work.I ask that our higher power doesn't take you away just yet because even though you can no longer place my face with my name. I'm STILL your grand daughter and your STILL my grand daddy!! I love you...GET WELL S00N!!

JUST WHEN....

Getting Back in my "Maya Angelou Mode"....enjoy.....more coming...



Beauty & brains are two things that I possess...
Just when you looked pass them…
they shined even brighter.
Genuine love is the key to my heart
…Just when you thought you had it…
I changed the locks
Convinced and corrupted
with no form of understanding
in site. Life holds many obstacles
and I’m only at start, parts
of my mind still cannot
fathom what the world has
in store for me….BUT Just when
you thought I was giving up...
I gave it my all!!
Just when you felt it was ok to make
me second so you could finish first,
I took my time & STILL came out on top!!
Remember when you pretended to
be happy to make some smile & others smirk!?
Or how about when you tried to dodge
the trials and tribulations bullet because
your too weak to live for YOU.
Just when you decided to leave... I stayed
& when you decided to lie…I told the truth
…when you laughed…. I cried...
When you doubted me…I kept the faith…
When it got dark…. I continued to shine
& when YOU became a coward…I
STAYED a woman.
Life often takes us on a path that we
sometimes dread to follow…never
settle or take the easy way out…
instead stick it out…prove them
wrong….My story was left half told
& unfinished but I’m determined
to tell it all & give it an “Happily Ever After.”
So the next time you feel good
about your choice remember
I’m feeling better
When you think I’m sad remember I’m blessed...
When you thought you won….
NEVER forget I conquered…
And when you feel like giving up…
UNDERSTAND I'm giving it my all!
Beauty & brains are two things that I possess...
Just when you looked pass them…they
shined above & beyond.
Genuine love is the key to my
heart…Just when you thought
you had it…I changed the locks
Just when …U…
thought…felt…decided…FAILED
Remember...I. continued...
never forgot…understood…CONQUERED

This W0MAN...a poem to my mother....

[[NOTE::]]--> o.k...so I haven't written one of these in a minute....
I have a lot of things on my mind but out of them all the only
thing that mattered to me the most was my mother.
Going into this new year I have noticed that
I have labeled many chapters that I have issues
w/ in my life with ... "to be continued" & this woman
has oddly given me the tools I need to complete each chapter.
Me & mom dukes are no Beyonce' & Tina Knowles..
in fact people often say we act more like Keisha Cole's Neffe
& Frankie when it comes to speaking our mines.
This poem is just a small token to show I'm forever
grateful even though I may not ALWAYS show it.
She hasn't read it yet..so I guess you can say
you all get the "World Premiere" ;-).
Read it...Comment...Enjoy...
{{Peace}}



A very hard pill to swallow but
this woman does the body G00D.
Shes a vicious storm that floods
the town but soon brings a colorful
rainbow into my world that
brightens my dreary day.
The hardest subject that any
university can offer but her
information has ALWAYS
prepared me to pass any test
of life w/flying colors.
This woman is my dark &
gloomy day & my bright & warm ray.
[THIS W0MAN] has caused me pain
but brought joy when it was least expected.
With her I am ::WH0LE:: I am ::FEARLESS::
Shes my addiction,even though she can
often go cold turkey without me.
Because of her I've discovered that water
and oil can too mix.
Shes ALWAYS around me even when
shes not present.
Shes in my ::WALK:: my [HIGH CHEEK B0NES]
my --DIMPLE-- my {L0NG CURLY HAIR}
my *SCARS* inside & out
[[THIS W0MAN]] is a part of me, we have shared
more tears than laughs, more frowns than smiles
& oddly I've enjoyed EVERY minute.
You see [[[THIS W0MAN]]] gives me new hope
each day even when I don't have the
strength to find it in her.
with [[[[THIS W0MAN]]]] I understand
what it feels like to be foolishly in love.
with [THIS W0MAN] i understand
the term "wishful thinking".
with [[THIS W0MAN]] i have tasted
large amounts of the unforgettable
flavor "bittersweet".
with [[[THIS W0MAN]]] I know how
to find "Happiness" because
I've watched her tackle "Sadness"
for so long.
with [[[THIS W0MAN]]] I have learned to
smile because crying is what
cleansed our souls.
with [[[[THIS W0MAN]]]] I now
cherish love, friendship & discipline.
she showed me that you don't have to be
the best person to be noticed.
[THIS W0MAN] oozes wisdom & love
& from here on out..I vow to absorb it
like a mop until her last breath.
A very hard pill to swallow but
[THIS W0MAN] does the body G00D.
I've learned
to no longer
love[[THIS W0MAN]] but
be -in love with- her.
for Shes in my ::WALK:: my [HIGH CHEEK B0NES]
my --DIMPLE-- my {L0NG CURLY HAIR}
my *SCARS* inside & out
[[THIS W0MAN]] is a part of ME.
..this sister..
this daughter...
this friend...
this teacher...
MY M0THER!! ♥...
the change of my lifetime!!






If you understand this poem WITH0UT rereading
you are G00D l0l..these words came to mind & I put
them on paper but had to reread because they
were my emotions but didn't make sense to
me at all & then it dawned on me...this is me & my
mother's relationship spread out on paper.
Something that I'm not use to.
I don't keep diaries or journals so this was hard
for me.If you understand this poem
you understand that we have not always seen eye
to eye...but I love her harder than
life itself. We are just alike so loving me
& loving her..makes me whole. Hope
you enjoyed reading it!! Thanx ;-)